the lives we live are built off of the people around us; the continuous cycle of people coming in and out of our lives. we are made up of little pieces of other people that form & direct the life we live. i am a mosaic myself; carefully calculated & hand crafted by those that sought out mentorship & companionship.
i have now assumed the role that i once used to take advantage of; being the person my younger friends call when the navigate through the territory of growing up and the boundary of finding who they are as a person. i am lucky enough to give them advice built off of those that i had once called in my early teenage years; the guidance i give comes from different walks of life and different years that all come together to try to build a solid foundation for others to one day do the same.
i hope the words i say stay with some of my littles that have been watching me grow up and make mistakes. there is a large part of me that holds on to this position i am in because of how badly i relied on it growing up. the people who raised me were not always blood related. they were my peers that went to college & left me to fend for myself in high school & were my classmates that i sat side by side with at graduation that are now the adults they dreamed of being.
my entire life & future have been influenced by not only my own dreams and aspirations but my watching & loving from afar all of the people that were years ahead of me. i watched as they wandered around trying to find what spoke to them, realizing that i have sets of eyes watching me do the same now.
there is still a group of people in my life that i still look to, not the same people from the years before, but they are the people i do need now. they will leave in the coming months & leave me here to carry on what they left behind, like i once did in high school. they will leave me to tell their stories & the stories we made together til i’m blue in face…til it still feels like they never left. as real adults, they have something more to contribute to this season of my life, teaching me the ways of independence & the wholesomeness of stability, which they have been graciously offering me the last two years.
they will always be years wiser than me. i’ll be chasing for my own success & greatness in the years that i spend trying to get to where they are now. i will be years wiser than those who are learning the value of peace and self enrichment the way i once did. there is a mutual understanding of the weight our shoulders carry for others & the beauty in that is enough to keep being the best version of myself for not only me, but for those who raised me & those i am raising myself.
with all my love,
♡steff
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